Enough

i asked to be in your presence
i asked for your company
i knew you could not get away
i knew you would not make the decision and choose me
i knew that you were busy doing the things
that a spouse does
i knew
i just missed you
i needed you here if only to hold me
for a while
i asked that you choose me
for once
make a decision to be in the arms of me
the one who appreciated you
the one who pleased you
who embraced your creativity
who made you smile
i asked
and you laughed
as if to say
"you know i cant do that"
and that is when i realized
i dont belong here
i dont have you
i had a false image of what i wanted us to be
i had thoughts of what i needed us to be
i wanted and needed for me
a companion
and you...
you were not
and would never be
you told me yourself
remember that day you were being truthful...?
remember how you said you would never choose me
you had to stay
stuck in that place
in that place that held you there
there was never future plans for US
never gonna be an US
so once reality set in
i decided
enough is enough