Wish I knew

and so
I
sit here with thoughts of us
I
can not understand
I
dont know if you loved me
I dont know...

I dont know if it was love
or just you making me think it was
-love
I dont know
if you loved me...
that is a f*cked up feeling
I must say
I dont know
I want it to be
that you loved me
I want to say
it all went down that way
I want to think
that you really did
love ME
but the truth is
I dont know.
I dont know
if you were just using me
to pass your time
or if you thought of me
really thought of me
i know what you said
but dont think you ever had
any true feelings
but...
I dont know
dam
I dont know
if the baby is yours
I dont know
if you really dislike her as much as you said
I dont know
if you really loved me
as much as I wanted you to
I dont know
and
not knowing
is a beast
I wish I knew