the lost gift

just about a week ago
i was writing of this gift
i found
now sitting here wondering
why you're so low down
cant get passed
the sudden decision
that you made
would have never predicted this
you said you loved me
but you didn't show it
you sang love songs
while we made love
i cant imagine
what goes on in your head
i should have never
allowed you into my bed
you say that time
doesn't keep us apart
but i don't understand
what is in your heart
its seems as though
when you feel love
you run
acting that way
will only lead you astray
my heart breaks
a little more each day
you said you'd be here
and you'd never go away
i was completely full
and here i am
as empty as can be
you said one thing
but continue to do another
words can not express
this slow disintegration
of my heart
i havent been heart broken
in some time now
i dont like the feeling
and this has to be the worst
because you leave without
notice
you just cut all communication
i wont begin to tell you
the things i've contemplated
because you would never
believe me
you are a selfish man
a pitiful man
a dam shame
a waste
i cant believe
this is the man i love
yes still
LOVE
stupid me
I know