a letter to daddy...

i am void of the right words to say
so i will use what i can find
i miss u so fucking much
i hate your guts
i want you around when your not
and i want you to leave my sight
when ur near.
what the fuck am i supposed to do now?
i dont have shit left
you hurt me so fuckin deep
i'm sick of crying
but the tears just keep coming
i want to run away and never see u again
but that is not the rational thing to do
why cant u just be gone
i waited & wanted for us
im am disgusted
im hurt
im angry
im sad
i miss u
i want u
i hate u
i love u
i need u
i need u to leave me alone
i dont know what the fuck i'm doing
what am i saying?
i cant do this
i love u
i love u
i fucking love u
do u know what that means?
do u know what that feels like right now??
do u know how much that hurts?
this is the bullshit
i cant do this shit
i am fucking dying inside
i asked u not to do this to me
u promised not to do this to me