i miss you

you i miss
i know i told you
to leave me alone
but i didnt mean it
i was just angry
cause you dont
give me
the attention
i crave
i saved for you
myself
and i waited
but like i said
you never showed up
i was so stuck
on the reality
that is us
that i let you
turn and walk away
i was sad
but it needed to be
cause there was
no WE
just you and her
so i ran you off
and never wanted
to look back
emotions i lacked
but know
that NOW
i miss you
i miss us
the naps
where we just layed
the times when we just played
i miss you baby
and i know you're not mine
but nevertheless
i miss my friend.

SO OVER YOU

so in your head
i'm still chasing
and wasting
my time
with your
line after line
ha ha ha
i laugh
at the thought
you think that i
am stuck on you
your a joke
im so done
i play with you
when there's nothing
else to do
i dont care
so beware
dont involve
your feelings
or your thoughts
or cares
cause me
i dont
i just pass
the time
when your there
it is wut it is
when your gone
outta sight
outta mind
i wish you knew
im so over you
but you think
everything is about you
at that i laugh
cause me...?
im over you
never turning back
cause i know
you are a lost cause
i have better things to do
and they dont include you
so just know
im over you
because of you
never again
~me and you
cause we are through

IN HARMS WAY

i look at you
wishing
praying for you
this day
with head in hand
bowing down
i ask for you
that harm
not come to you
or for you
because who you are
where you come from
makes you that object
some may forget
but i see
day after day
the way of the world today
i must protect you
my son
from life itself
i know that one day
you will become
a man...our KING
a glorious being
you will return the favor
of protection
but today
i must heed the call
for you and all
my brothers
my son
my nephews
as you are my heart
from you 'I' was born
i couldnt stand
to see us
torn apart
so i protect you
try to teach
but not preach
to you
to give life lessons
those of oppression
but these times
are hard
life is cold
so for you
i pray
that GOD
keeps you
out of harm's way

didnt mean to let go

i knew
from the initial contact
this was no more
than lust
at its worst
but me
i had a grip
i was in control
of myself
i knew i had been
in this similar place before
but this time
i was in control
when he touched me
with his hands trembling
i knew i was in control
as he kissed my neck
my ears
i felt this urge
to allow him to take me
have his way
with me
but i was in control
he looked in me
not at me
he found those pains
made them pleasures
he touched the aches
made them treasures
caressed my burden
with a lyric so pure
from his inner most emotion
his blood raced
as my heart beat patterns
across his
but i was in control
it was lustful
but meaningful
wild
but sensitive
my body said let go
but the mind
tried to keep
that control
then it happened
i lost my mind
my heart
my emotion
my destination
had been touched
reached
i let go
i lost control
i let it be
more than we
more than us
no longer lust
but that feeling
that i cant be
without you near me
i cant see
life without you
this feels true
there was love
i lost control

i waited

i waited for you to rescue me
from myself
from the me that keeps me from you
i waited for you to see
that deep in me
there is a girl
that just loves you
for you
cause you
make me...ME
i waited for you to call
to tell me
it was ok to be...ME
i waited for you to say
all was ok
and that this day
was just a day
of misunderstood words
and conflicting verbs
i wanted you to be there
when i arrived there
telling me "NO
dont go
stay...
dont walk away"
but there was no YOU
there was nothing
just me
and the emotions
that tell me
you are not for me
but in me
there is a voice
telling me
not to make a choice
to continue to allow love
for love
with love
i know this is conflicting
but my heart is so
you give me reason
purpose and hope
strength and will
but you werent there to say
stay
you didnt come
to hold my heart
you didnt call
to comfort my soul
you let me walk away
yet again
i never knew
love allowed letting go
letting be
letting leave
i never knew
until i waited
and you didnt show