i waited

i waited for you to rescue me
from myself
from the me that keeps me from you
i waited for you to see
that deep in me
there is a girl
that just loves you
for you
cause you
make me...ME
i waited for you to call
to tell me
it was ok to be...ME
i waited for you to say
all was ok
and that this day
was just a day
of misunderstood words
and conflicting verbs
i wanted you to be there
when i arrived there
telling me "NO
dont go
stay...
dont walk away"
but there was no YOU
there was nothing
just me
and the emotions
that tell me
you are not for me
but in me
there is a voice
telling me
not to make a choice
to continue to allow love
for love
with love
i know this is conflicting
but my heart is so
you give me reason
purpose and hope
strength and will
but you werent there to say
stay
you didnt come
to hold my heart
you didnt call
to comfort my soul
you let me walk away
yet again
i never knew
love allowed letting go
letting be
letting leave
i never knew
until i waited
and you didnt show