didnt mean to let go

i knew
from the initial contact
this was no more
than lust
at its worst
but me
i had a grip
i was in control
of myself
i knew i had been
in this similar place before
but this time
i was in control
when he touched me
with his hands trembling
i knew i was in control
as he kissed my neck
my ears
i felt this urge
to allow him to take me
have his way
with me
but i was in control
he looked in me
not at me
he found those pains
made them pleasures
he touched the aches
made them treasures
caressed my burden
with a lyric so pure
from his inner most emotion
his blood raced
as my heart beat patterns
across his
but i was in control
it was lustful
but meaningful
wild
but sensitive
my body said let go
but the mind
tried to keep
that control
then it happened
i lost my mind
my heart
my emotion
my destination
had been touched
reached
i let go
i lost control
i let it be
more than we
more than us
no longer lust
but that feeling
that i cant be
without you near me
i cant see
life without you
this feels true
there was love
i lost control