sick and tired

with you whats the point?
why do i come to look for you?
you never reciprocate
never give what you take
it all feels one sided
lopsided
I'm no longer motivated by you
no longer drawn to you
not inspired
just tired
of playing games
and placing blame
what do you want from me?
there is nothing left for me to pull from
I'm done
you're weak and misleading
deceitful and conniving
i cant and i wont
you say one thing
but do another
don't want romance
just another lover
you leave me feeling empty and used
truly abused
its mostly my fault
for wanting your attention
the slightest bit of affection
maybe one day
i will wake up and say
enough is enough
no more will you prey
on my forgiving soul
its sad to express
but emotions i suppress
just to hide them from your ways
for possible better days

BLAH

no motivation
just contemplation and frustration
bored
feeling ignored
no passions
nothing lasting
no sustenance or substance


mundane
complacent
stuck in a rut
really and trully
not giving a f*ck
just going through life
not stopping to see
all of the things
that were placed here for me
cant find the encouragement
especially in me
stuck here and now
not how its supposed to be


bland
no spice in life
monotonous and routine
obscene to say the least
a sad lonely place
i find myself there
no one & nothing anywhere
this is my life
and its
...BLAH

missing

after all this time
i find myself sitting here
thinking of you
wondering what could have been
would have been
should have been
it was probably for the better
but nevertheless
i sit here thinking of you
the way we would sneak off
just to be held
just to play
just to lay
missing your voice
but knowing you made the right choice
i wonder if ever
we will find ourselves together
i miss my friend
i miss my lover