TO MY FIRST

so i wanted this to be special
had planned for this as long as i can recall
like voluntary effort
making all the preliminary preperations
couldn't fall victim to doing it incorrectly
read some books
talked with friends
you know to get pointers
like tips and such
wanted to make sure everything was perfect
that which is without flaws
wanted this to be special
it was my first time

I changed clothes a million times
or so it seemed
when you saw me
i wanted you to think to yourself
this is the most beautiful woman
and i love her
i respect her
i knew you had been waiting
patiently
hoping to finally get the chance
to be in my arms
wrapped in my embrace
i walked into the room
there you were
i was nervous
scared
for you and for me
the mood was quite and still
mute and motionless
i felt like perfection for the first time
when you looked up in my direction
i knew this was the purest
most perfect love ever

see i had made my mistakes
but you were so precisely planned
so perfectly prepared
like the ALMIGHTY himself
had taken extra time
to chisel you by hand
i would have the opportunity
to do things right this time
my child's child
i had been so afraid of failure
as a parent
but with you
it was different
i knew i could do no wrong
by you
as you were perfection
my first grandson